For the majority of last week I was on Amazon Prime, Netflix and TV. Was I studying or binging or relaxing?
Munnariv reached over 13,000 with just word of mouth publicity that me, my friends and family have been doing. But I believe it should have already reached an even wider audience. Which makes me feel inadequate, unsuccessful, sad, a failure.
During such times I zone out, so as not to think about failures. I watch films, read books and so on. And then miraculously things always start getting better. The same happened with my Tinder stories. As the film’s release got closer, I shifted my focus from trying to make a match happen. And then miraculously I started getting matches, out of nowhere.
Maybe all I am doing is distracting myself and stopping depressing thoughts from turning into reality. Or maybe I am subconsciously studying for my next feature film. Maybe I am in one of those states where I don’t have a particular direction. I am trying to relax into it. Such times are often followed by very active periods.
I just wanted you to know that I also often have these times when it appears as if I am not doing anything worthwhile. But most of these times, unseen by me, things are always happening. It’s only a matter of time that it starts appearing in front of me.